I am afraid I thought too much about you. It seems a rather cruel thing to say but understand me. I had been feeling ill in the past few day – nothing to worry about which is why I did not mention it in my previous letter – but sleep was getting scarce and I could barely eat. Then I realised, autumn was ending in the forest and the last moon would soon be up by now. I realised that it has been another year. I do not know what they mean, out here, so far from home, but I still feel them.
I was in such a terrible state that I could not accompany my companions in our mission last week and had to stay on the ship when we landed on that planet. From what I understood however it was best as this seemed like a rather dangerous mission. Maybe my presence would have helped and made the situation better, I cannot tell but I doubt it. All I can say is that the others have come back and I we are probably going to be sent on a mission soon, again.
I am still extremely tired and need to rest so this letter will be kept short. I just did not want you to worry. If you can read my words, wherever you are, do not worry for me. I will not forget you. I will not forget the night that fanatic took your life and I hope that you are in a better place now. This place, this other world, I have been able to guess for years. I am sure it is the afterworld and that your spirit can see me from there. And mother too. Do you remember when she explained to us what our name means? I miss you all so much. But I will go on. For you, for me and for all the people that still need help. I love you and no matter how much it has hurt me and still does, I will never forget you.